Thursday, July 29, 2010

I don't like change so what am I doing in NC

I don't know what I was thinking. I don't like change I never did which is why I've lived in TX for over 40 years. I do not like NOT living in Texas. I do not like living in NC especially a small town. I don't like not knowing where anything is or who anyone is.

And I especailly don't like that my sweet son who loved his school so much is having so much trouble here. Or that my youngest child is mad at Jesus because he won't take him home to San Antonio. I wish more than anythign that I'd learned to appreciate what I had and not taken a chance. I don't like chances and I don't know how to fix it...

Friday, July 23, 2010

Just an update

What a surprise today when I finally looked at my blog--all the sweet comments. I almost deleted the post awhile back because to be honest I feel guilty. That's always been one of my biggest failings and sins I guess, feeling guilty about things I should feel forgiven about.

As to me, I half-heartedly started a new blog for my new life here in North Carolina. Since I only have one post I can't say I've been very dedicated to it either :-) I knew I'd feel down leaving TX but I've really let it get to me and I don't just want to blog sad whiny posts! I'll get it together once I get the house up to speed. I'm letting the amount of work I want to do wear me out before I start and that's a bad thing. On the other hand I hit it on our old house hard from February until April then of course keeping it in show condition once it hit the market. Fortunately it sold really fast (yes, I'm completely aware that was a God-thing in this housing market so I need to completely accept this is HIS plan for me) but then that necessitated the organizing and packing which was always tiring.

I'm hoping for some energy soon. Not sure if it's mood related or thyroid (lack of one) related. I need to find a new doctor once Connor starts Pre-K in September and get everything under control. For now I think I'll just get dinner done and hope my family is happy with that much!